Today I feel very edgy I saw a therapist on friday and tried to make some sense of why I am the way I with my anxiety but mostly with how it affects my going out..... it seems that that is what is necessary so I can access the world and therefore seek the appropriate help.
The problem is I start freaking out in my mind because I feel so broken I just don't know how to glue myself back together I have avoided life for the last 8 years I went from someone who could deal with life to someone who can't even open the front door. I want to have my life back but I also feel highly threatened by my anxiety levels which are oppressive when I am like this and I end up hating myself and my life and that is not right.........I feel very patronised very confused and highly anxious which is crippling at present I am sorry that I sound so negative I just feel very lost so I hope I can touch base with those who understand how anxiety is. Many thanks Mark x
