Hi Sim,
It is a dilemma. I am against taking medication except in extreme cases but then I am lucky enough to have a good therapist.
But it sounds like you definitely need to have something that will give you some hope of change.
If you trust your GP, then it is worth talking to them about how you are feeling and what options are available. If you are unsure of your GP, then try asking a friend from the group if they will go with you to the GP. That can really help. You are popular, there will be people happy to go with you I'm sure!
I did take Diazepam (Valium) a few years ago when I was really at my worst. That really helps but you have to be careful with it as it can be very addictive.
The type of medication depends on how you are affected. Diazepam is good to deeply relax you if you are having extremes of anxiety and perhaps stress. It can also help getting to sleep but not every night as you would become addicted.
Other people have taken beta-blockers (to calm down there heart rate I think). And others take anti-depressants but I personally had an awful experience on Prozac and statistically they are over-prescribed by GPs.
Hope some of this helps, hang in there!
