the love of my life has ended it.. i'm in pieces and so panicked and lost

[bluebellgirl]

it was such a shock, 2 years of bliss and out of the blue heended it last week saying he wasnt in love with me any more.
I was with him every day for 2 years, we have our names tattooed. he promissed a future. He was everything to me.. i've lost my best friend. ghe looked after me when i was in pain, anxious, ill.

i am so broken and so panicked hes not here and im truly on my own.
i want to come to the meet tomorrow but i feel its not fair as my anxiety is soo bad and im grieving so hard.

[Noisy]

Hiya Bluebell!

That sounds awful for you. It's bad enough when you go through a break up but when you depend on someone like that ...... 

What's not fair about you coming to tomorrow's meet? It's not called Brighton Chuckle club! We do have a laugh but we're there to help each other as best as we can. I've said elsewhere that members are welcome in any state of mind. We're a nice bunch of people and we're happy to listen.

Sounds like it might be good for you to do something different and distracting for a while?

love and light,
Martin

[bluebellgirl]

bless you.. i'm not a nutcase im just really steruggling with grief, shock and my mental health anxiety etc.. im usually quitye funny and very caring and good at supporting people( i used to be a samaritan) but im a mess right now.. if i do come how will i no who the group is? i have blonde hair and usually wear it in plaits. peace, blue x

[Noisy]

bless you.. i'm not a nutcase im just really steruggling with grief, shock and my mental health anxiety etc.. im usually quitye funny and very caring and good at supporting people( i used to be a samaritan) but im a mess right now.. if i do come how will i no who the group is? i have blonde hair and usually wear it in plaits. peace, blue x

We're all struggling in one way or the other and out of the whole group I'm the only one that's a nutcase! It confuses people that we seem so calm at the meets. We might not always feel it but ....

I think that anxious people overestimate how anxious they appear to onlookers.

We'll have a little bunny on the table, I have funny coloured hair and we're usually in the centre of the cafe.   
I hope that you'll make it!

Best wishes,
Martin. 

[Capricorn]

Hi Bluebell, I read your message and my heart goes out to you. It must feel very isolating and I want you to know that if you ever want to talk, either on here or at a meeting, then there are supportive people willing to listen.

The group has helped me so much, such wonderful, lovely people who I also now value as my friends too. I hope you will be able to make it.

Hugs to you...Eli x

[adobbs]

I read your story, and I really sympathize with you.
It must be hard dealing with the break up. Take it one day at a time, and dont forget that your not alone.
We have all had our share of break ups....just a sad fact of life.

[bluebellgirl]

aw thaNKS guys.. i havent been on here for ages and im still struggling with the grief.. its been 6 months, ive only just had the courage to get the tattoo of my exs name covered up.. im dreading my 1st xmas completely alone.. feeling more and more depressed and anxious.. im going to come to the mind talk tonight so hopefully will meet some of you guys.
bluebell x